To have loved

As I run, I feel my heart pounding faster and faster and faster. I'm somewhere else, even though I know I'm here. As I slow down and look at my trembling hands, soaked in the blood of another, I feel almost invigorated. Free at last from those tight bindings that held me for so very long. I remember this feeling... I love it..

Cravings and Envy

I watch with envy as the world flows past on back-lit screens, giggling at me, showing it can do what I've been denied for so long.

It's been weeks now since I've felt that thrill. That satisfaction of the hunt. That full blown joy that I feel when the last drop falls (if feeling is what this really is). And even better knowing that I'll never have to stop.

So quiet, so still that night. So sharp, so defiant. An extension of myself. And a firm one. Not one to argue with. So bold and final, she but held her breath and was gone.

And I crave for that once more...